Deep, Endless, Dark

when we are lonely... we feel like there are only spectators around us...
n you feel like no one could understand you

always taking the next train to another relationship..
to another love. neither fulfilling nor empty

soon there will be another storm
our hearts are just a room to rent.

most of us are the same... we only love the new faces
it is the fear of loneliness, hence we keep finding someone to fill the space.

Killer

art by Bonhwa..
i seldom post art by other artists but this reminds me of my old fascination by Yaoi art..
i m not gonna explain what Yaoi is cuz it is quite a taboo subject.. google it if ur interested..
:)

"so i felt like the biggest asshole.. felt like the biggest asshole...
when i killed your rock and roll...
every day i m watching you die."

"i can hardly speak, i understand
why you can't raise your voice to say.."

"slower, slower
we don't have time for that..
all i want is to find an easier way
to get out of our little heads.."

"have heart, my dear
we are bound to be afraid..
even if its just for a few days
making up for all of these mess.."

whispers

"in the silence you stare at the world,
your eyes are screaming to be heard..."


if only the world is fair..
then i wouldn't have to decide.
villain.

no comment.
i know.
i'll shut up now.


"i see all that you wanna be,
look into your soul looking right back at me,
i wanna learn you inside out.."

ACAA masquerade prom 2008

major.. (may-jah) flop.
its a long story why i ended up going anyway...

its a masquerade prom and EVERYBODY had masks.. man... i was so 'last minute' that i just slap on a few colors that i have to be my make up mask.. me and celine.. that is.. lol..
and i wore celine's dress... i have been taking her dresses and wearing them to functions non stop..
*guilty*

the performances suck.. the awards suck...(cuz i didn't get the best student award.. ahem *cough*.. but hakim deserved it.. true to my heart, serious he does.. at least i got nominated)

facebook chat is so cool... new peepz..
quiz of the day.

Lisa

hey

1:41amHaze

hey wassup

1:51amLisa

ntm hbu

ntm hbu = wat??





nothing at the moment, how bout you?
wow. technology.
my next blog will be full of shorts....

all the pics is in my facebook as well..
here are the pics..
our table

sullen sullen me.. late

lovely liana

audrey eating.. justin showing weird face.. lol

our waiter

zeh pin

can you tell i m grimacing cuz the camera won't snap?
bad lighting env... bad cameraman.. lol


justin n auds...

damn camera. snap already.

cu of my make up. after i did the blue eye.. i was doing my blusher and i was thinking what if my blusher ends up in my other eye..bad bad idea

celine with her butterfly painted make up mask

this is how she looks like with her eyes closed

liana... joen and marwan..

camwhore..camwhore
spend what money on make up n hair la.. do urself oni..

best VR student :zeh pin and shanker

panjang

zeek the muse and me

zeek the clown and me

playful liana

amir n his gang

amir n me

dr House MD and me

ya man u better have a smile on your face.

me and umair

celine and me

cu..

auds camwhoring with me

chew

auds in mask

lollipop!

just to stifle my urge to smoke

chew, me and apis..

i love this photo.......so much..
celine auds and me

auds and justin

me and amir

auds n zeek

awwwww....
poor auds.. she is trying to look as pretty as possible and he is trying to look as idiotic as possible.. haha

justin n auds

amin n me.. see vinn? u din miss out much attaa ALL.

me and joen.

at home..

at home... wrong white balance setting. heck care...

take care yall... lolz

i am a creep

When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
so fucking special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so very special
so fucking special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out the door
She's running out
She run run run run...
run...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't belong here...

the worst feeling of all

love is like a moving cloud..
it floats high and light..
it shelters you from the harsh light of the sun..
it even divides the anger of the sun out into colourful rays..
but it absorbs droplets of pain..
and then pours them down in rain..
it also absorbs light...
and then strikes them down in anger..
it can turn grey with sadness..
and engulf everything else in pain..
but when it leaves...
the sun shines and blinds you with it's ferocity
and you die.. from the dry piercing warmth that stabs you every now and then
..the cuts remind you that you are alone..
it tears you up inside and you are reminded of how unworthy you are..
but you are not in pain..
for the sun numbs you to the core.. and you feel nothing.
nothing.
not the cold sweet taste of ice cream.. nor the warm hot cocoa...
melodies turn into silent drones.. and friends became empty shells of temporary haven..
you reach out to touch something.. just hoping that it will remind you of your own existence..
but nothing is there.
no one is there to save you.
no one is there to tenderly stroke your hair and face..
no one is there to share comfortable silence with..
you no longer feel anything...
and that is the worst feeling of all.