haze

...somehow.. i don't feel emotionally satisfied .. not that i m not grateful.. or that i m not in love.. but somehow i felt that there's something missing.
i felt like asking him questions..but i kept forgetting them. but its hard to get him to be honest with me.. cuz he's always worrying whether he will hurt my feelings onot..

...and i myself find it hard to be honest. yea.. worrying whether will i hurt his feelings.
everytime i talk to him.. get tongue tied. there isn't a time when i call him my heart beat didn't accelerate. chemistry at the wrong time.

...i wonder what is this i m feeling nowadays.. didn't wanna care much bout anything liao.. whatever will come..will come in the end.
maybe i have met the man of my life..maybe i haven't. but it all depends on him.