finally DONE!!

finally finished 1200x1600 resolution.. click for a larger display..
i have so much more to learn.. comments are welcome :D

mimimomo

MOMO HAS ARRIVED

one can't have all

finally felt the satisfaction of playing in a music band today... the high you get when the applause comes.. and the high you get when u realized u can play every decor in your musical notes without flaws.. and the high you get from the resonance with other instruments.. the rapport with band members.

but i m lacking behind in other things
i missed the yearly ancestral routine.. is she disappointed i did not come see her this year...
did she expect this from me so early and also in my coming of age year.

i have been confused lately.. of love and of need.. of want and of routine... of companions and of friends. deep down i m just the same girl i m inside, the same one who would feel lonely without people around her.. same one who yearns to break free from norms.. same one who walks away quietly without celebrating success.. same one who keep wanting to find more and more people to celebrate with..for success without celebration is not success... and celebration without people of the same dream is not celebration..

i will keep moving on.. working harder than ever.. trying to get an A in my work.. my life.. my love..my family and in everything else.. for i know i fail in everything else except for work.. cuz there is no one there to grade and guide me in all the other aspects of life..

promises is but a whim at a moment.. and like contracts, can be void after some time.

Unexpressed

when you smile my life becomes a ray of light
sing me a lullaby to sleep at midnight

i'll be hypnotized when i looked into your eyes
turn off the room light let's spend the night

take me to far away, away to your secret place
take my tears, my fears
take all my pain for which i'll repay someday with a kiss and say "can't believe that i'm in love, in love again'

when the stars don't shine and when the birds don't fly
and when the flowers cry and when the rain runs dry

when the violet's red and when the rose turn blue
baby i'll still be in love with you..

emotions

deja vu.. i felt like how he did all the time when i was younger. it was so often that i grew numb. n i learnt to look away.

love love love

portfolio update

i wanted to paint my room walls this weekend but the new wardrobe for my clothes have not arrived yet.. n i might need to make another trip to ikano to buy a wall table. if you know wat i mean.. haha..

so next week i'll be posting up photos of my room and my new house!!!

for the mean time i need some feedback..

below are some renders i composited from my tree dryad model.

advice on which one of the below looks more photorealistic.
this one? ( dark shadows no moss)

this one? ( moss n lighter shadow)

this one? ( moss + attached and cast shadow + hair {the leaves are her hair})

comments most welcome.. hehe.leave a shot