haze

Girl in ur dreams

Was walking down the street one day.. then i saw u i didn't know what to say..
ur eyes were shining.. uR smile so kind..
when i saw u.. i wanted u to be mine..

maybe i dun have the blonde hair u like.. or maybe i dun have eyes like the sky..
n i m not sure if i m the girl in ur dreams..but i can show u wat love meanS..

one day u came n talked to me.. n u said we are meant to be...
i was happy..everything was so nice..but then i found out that everything was a lie

how could u do this to me.. u said we r meant to be..
u showed me how to cry.. when u told me everything was a lie..




love's hard to come by.. doesn't it.. sigh....

back from langkawi... :)
as usual.. i m the one holding the camera.. instead of the one posing for it... ommited out of my family... the family that isn't mine...

funny how when u have something.. no matter how good.. u can never find the space to appreciate them n be grateful for them....

but once u lost them... n have them back with u again... no matter how appreciative u are.. or how grateful.. they'll still leave ... until u can't possibly find any space in ur heart to appreciate anything at all

sometimes.. cracks remain even if repairs are made.


but...i m pleasantly surprised that.. up til now.. issues that were unsolved before is laid upon my path once more.. not yet solved.. but a chance to solve... do i dare to take it up again..for it demands too much attention n sacrifices...


i realize that i m left not without options.. many options lie in my path.. but none of them interest me. i m interested only in the option thats already dead.


in a much more optimistic view.. i have found my aim.. its been too long since i last have an aim... seemed too far.. n idealistic..this one.. but i'll work on it...

its going to be hard doing it alone....but i m so excited about it!!!... i can't wait to start.. yet i know it is difficult.. n i might never be able to finish it in my lifetime all by myself... n by the time i m done with 5 of them.. the first one will be outdaTed.. i Dun care.. i need a start...

i m gonna start reSearching now....