haze

...i have never been so confused before.. not at him..but at myself..
yea.. i wanted something. and i wanted to get it.. but why can't i tell him?? ... was it because i still feel i m not close enough with him?..no.. i felt close.. but why??
and because of my stupidity.. i think i hurt him... no.. i m SURE i hurt him.. damn it!!
but like i said.. everything happens for a reason.. why m i saying this at this hour..

sigh... i wonder if he will ever call again... sob..


...feel as if i m too demanding.. hmm......... hell..