haze

its so deja vu...

all these while...i thought he will never miss me..or think of me cuz he's always so busy with his life... and i m the only one missing him..wanting him.every minute of the day...
but yesterday...he msged me.."you may not think of me much daily cuz you have so much to do... but i do"

i was speechless... too surprised to defend myself against that line..

hehe... he seemed to be more n more ME.. i dunno.. i just start to see myself in him more n more.. the sudden outbursts of emotions.. sudden blues..out of no apparent reason at all... he seemed to be getting more n more clever each day.. while i.. i just wanna love him the way he wanted me to. i don't mind giving up anything for him..

there was another deja vu...but i forgot what it was... well..he always made me surprised whenever he did something out of the ordinary.. notices things and remember stuffs that even i dun give a damn about.. and when he does that...i m either too happy that he noticed .. or too surprised that i forgot bout myself..


he bought a phone card and we talk for like an hour and half... our first long phone talk since we got back together in april... nothing much had changed...just that.. matured liao.. but i m still stupid and dumb enough to say things that i m not supposed to say... but well.. its the price for honesty...


he can be really sweet n funny at times... but most of the time.. he's too busy.. or..its just that i felt that i m a nuisance to him..


....bout trust. ... i think.. only time can prove it.


he's unpredictable nowadays...n i love it.