haze

i m never this upset.. why is feelings getting more n more intense for me??.. upset..anger.. whatever..

guess i m going to cry myself to sleep tonight again...but who cares?.. i mean.. who will care.

i felt like stealing my passport.. take a plane to japan.. go eat sushi..play piano..go to california.. eat the steaks.. then go to singapore.. stripped myself naked in front of him and stab myself to death right on that spot.

yea. i m insane.