haze

these nights..i stopped fantasizing... stopped imagining..

y?.. i m not in the mood... i guess this is all my own wrongdoings that lead me here today.

as a girl. i do not know y i .. gave in. do i deserve more?.. i m not sure.


maybe its time.

he told me many times.. he will treat me like a princess.. when i m there.. even now i smile at the thought of it.. thinking back on that day.. when he looked at me intently.. the only time when i really did blushed. but right now i felt as if i lost.

lost every single thing in the world. nothing means anything to me anymore.. the happiness is gone.


yea.. i love him. with everydrop of tear i cry at night.. much more than juliet loved romeo n rose love jack. which explains all.


he still cares... he still loves me... but how much.. i do not know...


i hope all the things i agreed to do won't make me regret when i come back to malaysia... not because he will mistreat me.. i never would think like that.. just that.. accidents do happen.



he told me he doesnt wanna hold my hand.. but i m sure it will turn out to be a surprise..he will hold my hand.. n i'll be overjoyed.. :)
can't wait for it to happen...

i waited all life for the one i love to look me in the eye.. n tell me he love me... i really want it to happen...

all the long wait.. is for this... i just hope i can be sincere when i m there.. i dun wanna act around him... i wanna be honest.


well.. i m happy he is my bf. not some other guy.