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CHENG YEE"S POST...(glad u found happiness..i m proud of u

Tuesday, April 27, 2004


21/4/2004
=round 4.30pm, he walked in towards me, a silly smile just like what i've asked..
think he felt kinda uneasy, not sure whther it's cuz of embarrasment or a sign of dissapointment..
said he'll pick me up after work..

=different from the picture in my head, way much taller, lil darker, and a lil hunchback: not exactly dissapointed, cuz have already prepared for the worst to come..told myself million of times that i should and will love him for the way he is, and i've done it..
question:who am i to care about people's appearance anyway??
answer:NO ONE
wonder what'll he think of me from that glance..

=was expression-less from that moment onwards in mimo, sms-ed him while Wee Ting is having break in the store room
cherry:hui hen se wang ma?
jun ye:bu hui shuo, bu xiang shuo, bu gan shuo, jing wan zai shuo:(

made it very clear dy huh?...



22/4/2004

=woke up with him right beside me.. how i wish it would just last a little bit longer..
qi shi zui pa de jiu shi suo you de dong xi dou rong hua chen yi ge mong jing, zui mei de yi
ran shi zui bu zhen shi de..

it was so real.. cuz i can feel him, feel his touch, feel him melting my chilling fingers.. it can be so beautiful.. but why cant it last? everything's the same.. when you have it, you'll be begging for more, and as for me, i just want to close my eyes and be in the dream never wanting to wake up if it can be possible.. never wanting it to reach the end..

=was confused.. what's between us is not distance, but appearance. He can be so cold to me when we're outside.. am i being sensitive? or it's the fact? i can feel eyes glaring at us, i know im too short and he's a lil bit too tall.. but why cant they just keep their fucking eyes off us? it makes him staying away.. not wanting to be close with me.. or was it cuz i'm really that ugly... ugly...

completely different from the him inside... and yet, he still loves me,which i made myself believe..

=never shed a single tear for a guy, NO, cuz it was never worth it.. but i broke my own rule,when i was to think that he wont be right here tomorrow, and another tomorrow's tomorrow, and so many tomorrow's to come..
as if we're being sent back to how we've used to be.. was afraid, scared, that it may be the first, and yet the last, like how it have always used to be.. making everything looked so beautiful, and ended up right there, as if nothing ever happened..


23/4/2004
a LAST long lasting kiss, ever so passionate.. like it'll never end.. but it did..
i'll remember every single word you've told me, like a little child.. sometimes so innocent, and naive..

won't deny that i'm still hesitating on what you felt about and for me, but was a part of me kept telling myself it was true.. everything.. including you..

23-Apr-04 11:40
From:cherry
wo ai ni

23-Apr-04 11:51
From:Jun ye
Love u forever