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FAKE-ism


the world is such a fake place to be.. yet we exist just to exchange fake insincere words that are complicated.

today, my family n i went for the praying as it as cheng meng and everything... we had 4 boxes.. yea.. that means 4 dead. 2 grandparents... 1 my dad's sister n the other one.. well.. my mom.


there were located at 2 different places... my mom in a more expensive one.. n the others in a different one..

we went to the other one... n there was a granny who take care of the place there.. people who came gave her money.."to buy food".. talking to her in whispers n in false concern for her welfare. the granny ,[well, probably she accepts money too often] just said thank you without even the courtesy of.."no need ..no need"...


n my dad prayed with a furious kinda seriousness.. i assumed it is to make the same act at my mother's place seemed normal n right to do.. since my stepmom followed too..


the offerings..yea..the offerings..as usual we steamed a whole chicken, with lettuces.. spring onions still raw n fresh..with 2 fried fish.. n rice..of cos.... which i thought were decent n appropriate... i was surprised at the amount of white plastic covers filled with stalls' chicken rice..n just chopsticks placed uncertainly by them..

the sincerity of those who came prayin r decreasing every year...

n they pray as if they are doing a wild gesture shaking their hand forward n back..instead of some holy respect....


who can blame them?

have u ever realize..the muslims have their QURAN bible.. n the christians have their holy bible.. n us..buddhist...have..??

who would believe or continue to believe?

ok, the 'journey to the west' series is not good enough for convincing's sake..



n christians..not that i m critisizing.. but when adam's 2 son, which one is a farmer n one is a hunter... they present a sacrifice...mainly the farmer producing crops to the god n the hunter presented dead animal.

yet the god would not accept the crops. it was said..that if blood were not shed, it is not considered as a sacrifice.

how can god love life n love us when he wanted us to kill???


n when he could choose to save a certain people... n i m talking bout the time way after noah... he chose the israels...

remember moses?? the splitting of seas??.. the red cloud pillar in the sky n the dew that turned to food .. n the water to flow from stone?..n the killings of the egyptian's first borns??

remember?.. the hebrew slaves? well.. they are israels...


he chose them instead of the other suffered n tormented people in the other parts of the world...

so does that means he love only them?

n when christianity is spreaded, the chinese n indians..n other races converted.. what makes them think the god will accept them when he only chose the israels??
what made them think that god will love them too?



n because of this.. the israels..they become light headed..thinking that they are the chosen ones.. marrying only within their race , believing they have the noble blood of the god, cuz they ate the food that god made.believing that they are cleverer than all.

n wat will happen? sooner or later they will extinct.


have u ever wonder y our passports..forbid us to go to israel.. think muslims... think war..think jealousy.




yea.. wimps. believe in god so that they feel better, thinking that when they died someone will look after them upstairs or downstairs.

when we die.. we r dead. thats all. we lost everything in this world. wat else matters other than that?