haze

MY IMMORTAL

if there were no words, no way to speak, i would still hear you.
if there were no tears, no way to feel inside, i still would feel you.
and even if the sun refused to shine, even if romance ran out of rhyme, you would still ahve my heart until the end of time cuz you r all i need, my love.. my valentine.

all of my life i have been waiting for all you give to me,
u opened my eyes.. n showed me how to love unselfishly
i dreamt of this a thousand times before, in my dreams i couldn't love you more.
i would give u my heart until the end of time.
cuz all i need is you, my valentine.

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finally.. got the time to update my blog.. so tired... tomoro need to wake up at 5 am too...

finished my assignment already...finally.. n how i hate cow gum..

ok.. first of all.. updates bout the previous week..


no.. i m not going to do monday tuesday wednesday ..bla bla anymore.

try this.


yesterday yesterday yesterday yesterday yesterday i dragged myself to class.. bored myself to death with the classes there..

yesterday yesterday yesterday yesterday started drawing LINES... smelly lines.. made out of chinese ink.... the whole class n our room stank real bad. n i made a huge damn fool outta myself.. as u know how slow n mudplank my creativity is.. i just splat a few lines across..

ok.. imagine.. a wet brush in ur hand.. with diluted ink.. scribbling across the art block.. then dipped into thick ink.. drew a cross.. n 2 circles on the tip of each cross.. n an opened mouth below the intersection of the cross..

ok.. that looks angry.. fine. drew tears below the 2 circles who suddenly look as if they are eyes.. n wanted them to have lids.. but failed.. cuz they turned out to look like flowers.


argh. heck care.

then went for CF again.... theres this hilarious performance.. way funny.. cool stuff..


yesterday yesterday yesterday went to register for clubs.. n me n fel went havoc at the multi purpose hall.. i made her join my clubs.. n she made me join hers.. so in total. she ahve 6 clubs.. n i have 7.

i thought it was normal.. until i tell others about it.. n they went like.."WWWAATTT!!!"

.. yea yea.. audrey.. i know u didn't do that.. haha

suddenly.. poh yee from choir approached me asking me to be pianist for choir.





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woohoo!!..haha

so i went for choir.. n fel was made conductor!!!

hahahaha.. so both of us martians made a fool of ourselves in front of those earthlings..

crap. it was crap fool.


yesterday yesterday woke up too early. all for nothing.

he called again.. oh.. he called before. n gave me .. the reason for the past.

i'll go into that later.


ok.. so.. yesterday went out to klcc to watch shrek 2.. it was hilarious... had a marvellous time fooling around..n bumping n listening to SATB of the bus's musical voice. the moon that night were amazing too.

.......for someone...
alone for a while i have been searching thru the dark for traces of the love u left inside my lonely heart to weave by picking up the pieces that remains, melodies of life love's lost refrain.
our paths they did cross though i cannot say just why ,we met we laugh we held on fast n then we said goodbye.. n who'll hear the echo of stories never told ..let them rign out loud til they unfold.
in my dearest memories, i see u reaching out to me..Though you're gone,i still believe that u can call out my name.
a voice from the past joining urs n mine, adding up the layers of harmony.
n so it goes on n on.. melodies of life thru the sky beyond the flying birds forever n beyond.

so far n away, see the birds as it flies by gliding thru the shadows of the clouds up in the sky.
i've laid my memories n dreams upon those wings. lift them up n see wat tomoro brings.
in ur dearest memories.. do u remember loving me? was it fate that brought us close n now leave me behind.

if i should leave this lonely world behind, ur voice should remember our melody.
now i know we'll carry on.melodies of life come circle n grow deep in our hearts for as long as we remember.


ok.. so today finished my lines assignment................. crap. looks terrible.


heck care


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he explained to me.. though was hard to accept.. find myself hoping it was a lie.
true or lie.. it all lies down to one fact.

both of us trying to solve the past.. solve those cold dead cases that were frozen long ago.. n hopefully we r succeeding.

the moments spent were precious.. but still.. there were traces of the past..

nevertheless.. i was still happy...finally we get to talk bout that day in sg in a positive manner.. POSITIVE.

i found out things bout myself.. that i didn't know.. n not all of them are good....
but some of them are pretty amazing.. :p

remembered alot of things.. especially bout how i felt before. i m all i'll ever be... can't do nothing to change that....



nope. i m not going to be happy or optimistic..not this time.. how could i be optimistic after hearing the news from him.


aih.. i promised i will have a nice long explanation up here tonight.. but couldn't.. i m too tired.... shit..its hardest writing bout feelings n all instead of i swear i'll have one up tomoro.....

i m sleepy.. hungry.. sick.. lonely.. n crap. i m cytuipid.





ok. last word before signing off.. i'll post a nice long one tomoro...........

i m ever so ready to mend the past with love.