haze

...ii have nothing on my mind..really..
.. then y m i here?

.. cuz .. i dunno. cuz there's no one for me to talk to. friends gone. parent's dun care.
.. but what exactly is bothering me right now? i had no idea..

the night before yesterday, i had this disturbing dream n i can't seem to get it out of my mind.


it was a party... at a grown up's house ( which means boring) n i was there with my relative..nothing special..small humble abode quite dirty..

suddenly.. thru the wooden window, there's a flash of fireworks.. Red .. as blood. and magnificent. there was a lion dance.. with the lion doing a few antics n jumps.. n the lion head seemed to suddenly turn at us. at me. right thru the wooden window.

the lion started marching towards us.. with a ghostly rhythm , all of a sudden, everyone in the house is rushing out. telling me that the lion is after me. i was scared, very scared out of my wits.

i struggled to keep up with them, running n staggering with fear to the backdoor.. which leds to a back alley, a very dark one. it was night then.
we ran forward.. n the lion was passing the end of the row of houses right at the back of us.. it missed us.

we ran.. n reached a restaurant, a mee restaurant. there was no business, the owner were sitting there picking at her teeth. it saw us scrambling in. she heard the lion coming. she was frightened too. but she led us to the back.. we climbed over boxes of wooden crates.. to a small opening ( like a window) she told us to climb in it.. n we did.. it was a small room. like an attic. we squeezed outselves there uncomfortably n settled down in exhaustion, sleeping but our minds still alert if any small movement should occur.

i woke up in the morning, and someone told me i had to go on alone. i was afraid. but that someone.. i dun remember who.. not even a he or a she. i dunno.. that someone was kind.. (i'll call the someone as A)

A told me i have to catch the train at the crosstracks. we ran to a train tracks which was divided into 2, one going under the ground. a train stopped there. i jumped in, only to hear the lion dance music coming . i was scared. A was scared too, for A jumped in.

The lion watch us choo chooed away in the train... we talked a while.. i do not remember wat. but we ended up in Austrailia.

i got off the train. the 2 of us.. walking slowly n leisurely, thinking that danger has passed. we walked to a house. my aunt's friend was there. he welcomed us.. we told them bout the lion. n we were permitted to stay.

days went by happily. we had milk for meals.. n their children for fun n playing. the garden was green.. with fresh air. after time passed by too long for us to be worried anymore, we started to talk bout going back to home.

suddenly we heard the dreadful music of lion dance just outside the green lawn.. i ran . n ran.. to the children's room. i climbed out of the window.. and fell on soft green grass.. i hide there. but i saw the lion's head peeping out of the corner!!!!!!!!!

.. my heart was pumping so hard..i ran n ran.. headlong to a bush of grass.. but i did not care i ran.. the land was going downhill. i rolled n rolled.. n remember a slab of cemented edge before being capulted into the air.. and somehow the green scenery changed to a dark gloomy one, i fell into a large rectangular pool of water( looks like a canal to me, dark n blue)

there were people swimming there.. i swam to the furthest end.. n pushed my head up above the surface.. there was a man beside me.. he was laughing n enjoying himself.. he did not seemed troubled by a girl who felll in to the water out of nowhere..

i tried to pretend nothing happened.. n chatted with him half mindedly while my eyes look up the hill i just fell from.. the lion was walking there.. searching..searching with his head for me. his head turned to my direction n i put my head back in the water as fast as i can.

i waited... with dread.. my heart was pounding so fast.. i opened my eyes underwater.. it was deep n dark.. i saw people's legs there... hoping i won't see a lion splashing in...

i waited.

nothing.. i put my head up.. it was gone..

i relaxed. the man beside me kept talking to me.. i began to loosen up.. n even swam a few laps across the pool..i played with the man's kids... throwing the ball to them.
to my surprise i was laughing.. n had forgotten bout the lion.

they lent me a red towel.. similiar to the one my aunt in sg gave me. i was drying my hair.. walking up the hill..back to the house in the green landscape.. i was smiling.. i went in.. they were all there... ask me if i m alright.. i said i m fine.. n went to the chidren's room to get some clothes.. the wardrobe is right beside the window i climbed just now to ran away.

i was wiping my hair, squatting in front of the wardrobe when suddenly a lion head peeked in!!!!!!!!!!!

i was shocked!!.. i scrambled to my feet. n pushed myself flat against the warhdrobe. squatting as low as ever.. hoping it can't see me with its vision.. i was sweating n wet with tears.. dreading wat was going to happen eventually. the lion was searching with all its might..then suddenly, the head came off, revealing a guy underneath. he was smiling.. n sweating.. i was still frightened n numb to my senses.
he asked me.." drying my hair?"

i was like.........................( huh?)........i din reply.. still too afraid.

he said.." have u seen a girl around?"

( he did not know it was me they were looking for!!!!!!!!)

i put on my best fake face, n smiled broadly..." what girl? , u r sweating heavily. hot weather huh?"

he smiled n went away...........

wa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wa scared outta my god damn wits.!!

..i ran back to the living room.. thinking bout that guy.. wat a weird incident.


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i woke up. sweating. n scared.

what does this all means?