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a pail full of idiots I M RANTING !!!!

i cannot tahan idiots

u know who is considered as idiots?
people who asks questions when they already know the answer or the answer is right in front of them or when they wait a while more, the answer will reveal itself.

case 1:
some dude just added me on YM for no reason.. in the end i found out he wanted to learn 3d max....he was referred from a senior fcm friend of mine..
after an hour of teaching him.
he asked me .. are u from fcm.

fcm. means faculty of creative multimedia.
in mmu. my university in cyberjaya, theres only FOUR faculties.
engineering. management, IT and creative multimedia.

DO U EVEN THINK BEFORE ASKING A QUESTION??? especially u r using yahoo messenger to contact me.. u can like think for as long as u want before pressing enter!!???
u think engineering, management, will learn 3d max???
n u think IT students will know alot bout 3d max in BETA??? when its their first year learning it????

n u know wats the problem he have with 3d max.
he wanted to import 3d max 8 file into 3d max 6.


ok. for people who dun use 3d max. i ask u
microsoft word 2006 can import into microsoft word 2001 onot???????
how can u import something new into OLD????????

where got people so TUN!!! somore study IT!!!!!!! BETA YEAR SOMORE
i screamed in frus dunno how many times thru out the conversation i had with him until ah b also frus n shouted back at me.

somore english so damp powderful.

case 2: poor tan kena lambast here.

i m drawing the textures on my binded book of subject studies on my pc table... refering to the monitor
tan asked..... oh. is that ur book..

hallo? its obvious its my book. i erupted in mountains of fire coming out in volleys thru my ears, nostril, mouth, n skin pores!
poor tan i scolded him siao. sorry.. after that guy i m like super sensitive .


i dun understand why people ask me oh u eating ah. when i AM EATING.
oh u driving ar. when I M DRIVING
oh u wear skirt ar. when IT IS A SKIRT!!!
oh why u come here ar?? when i m in the restaurant. TO EAT LA. mtcbmtfk

at least tell me.. oh u pretty ar. or oh u fat ar.
at least this kinda things i DUNNO its happening.

case 3:
this idiot. this case is super long ago di wan.
hes a mutual friend of me n my good friend.. n well last time my hair is wavy. i dun look like chinese la.
n my good friend. she got long hair. quite pretty la.
then he everytime online. ask none stop bout her... in BROKEN ENGLISH
where is ***? she is beautiful.. i long time no talkwith her liao .. how is she studies?

then i made the mistake of entering a game together iwth him.. last time vv cun big2 network.
can play chor dai di online that one.
he kept asking bout her none stop!!!!! i was going out of my mind.
n u know whats the climax of my frustration
he suddenly asked me be his gf.

wat kinda idiot tell a girl he is proposing to about another girl all the time.

... oh u know wat is his msn status now. looks like his english din improve. *finally i m join in O2jam server*

baka baka baka baka

so pls pls pls dun ask anything if the answer u already know.
like when my parents go out i follow. my sis ask non stop . where we going where we going where we going where we going
if she's my daughter i'll slap her.
30 minutes later U WILL KNOW WHERE WE ARE GOING!!! CANT U WAIT A WHILE TO GET UR ANSWER> like its gonna matter like that. u know di then wat i ask u. then wat???
answers will always reveal themselves in time.

n i totally cannot tolerate people asking questions just to show off.
oh do u know how much is this ******.
n u tell the person u have to find out n he have to wait a while
the person replies because he have to in YM u always reply one after another , the person says... oh my *** bought it for me./oh i have to bring it when i meet **someone higher status**

no matter how much... usually its not much. u r still gonna buy it!! why iz the price relevant.?? why do u need to ask how much izzit?? does it affect anything at all?? u will STILL BUY it.
why ask why ask why ask.
gosh i hate show offs.

n then u tell the fella. the price is not relevant right.. u r still getting it anyway. why do u wanna know.

oh i just want to know.
i want to plan. PLAN WAT???

mt cb

u wanna boast u boast la!! i dun mind!!!!! BUZZ me. tell me . wat u so proud off.
then i be happy for u. dun do farnee fakup things to show off. walking in front of me with gucci n prada plastered on ur toes is more subtle.

GOSH!!! me saying MAO MAO FAT, FAT FAT, MIAO MIAO, MIOR MIOR is even more intelligent than all those shit i been getting!!!!!!
man i sure miss intelligent conversations where no one ask questions when answer is known or about to be known.

u know theres this thing called tension. where theres something waiting to be revealed. an answer that u r supposed to give to relieve the tension.
even when theres no question.

example (p-idiot, q-smartass)..... 5 am conversation thru online messaging

p- hi


both feels the tension to speak. idiots will ask questions. intelligents will say something smart.

p- so late havent sleep? *5am. STILL NEED TO ASK???*

q- i m reading some crazy dude's article... quite interesting. *ignores question*




tension again

p- wat u doing now? *OH WAT THE FUCK. just told u wat. ask agian for wat?? idiot.*

q- still reading.. *pities p's stupidity** wat bout u?

p- nothing. * how can u be dsoing nothing????**





p- very boring arrrrrrrrrr ** this is the cue man, escape from t his idiot!!!!!!!!!!**

q- then why are u awake??? ** annoyed**

p- cannot sleep ** y u tell me u cannot sleep when i already know u r awake. tell la .. u got assignment. shits to do. people cannot sleep they roll in bed until they sleep ok. baka **




...tension builds up for someone to say something

p-wat u reading? * already told u!!!!!!!!!!!! crazy dude's article**

q- www. bzgjsdoifjsodf.com ** does not bother to repeat answer **

p - wa!!! u read alot hor.


stupid people talk too much. empty cans rattle too much. they know nothing



one day she'll get tired of facing older men. playing it happy and sultry for them.
one day she'll get tired of facing clients, soliciting business..
one day she'll get tired of all the money..
one day she'll get tired of him..

when she does.. what is left to keep her happy..
when u can get tired of money. love. happiness. all there's best in this world..
just something.. something out of routine. for once. for one day.

be kidnapped. go far far away. be free out of bounds of life. money n love.
be free to search for other life. money n love.
get tired.
search for another.

maybe she's just bored. its hard pretending to be dumb n stupid.
pretending that nails n hair are all that matters at the end of the day.
pretending that other people's comments and judgements matters at the end of the day.

maybe it isnt pretense. but some day it will be. everything will be once u wanna stop doing it but keep doing it for routines sake.



some old photos of zzen's farewell....

in neway... this one was posted before

the next day.. woke up feeling like monday... rushed to ck's house... hp no credit n on the way she msged me...'i dun wanna go'
i honked until she come out


cheng yee.. lie yuen.. me... zzen.. n chin kuan
we were in... a really cool vegetarian restaurant that me n cheng yee used to hang out together last time after school.. n we always order too much food.cuz they look sooo nice!!!

zzen.. chin kuan.. pooi see.. me.. cheng yee

zzen.. cheng yee.. chin kuan.. me

clockwise from me... chin kuan.. cheng yee.. zzen.. lie yuen

zzen .. chin kuan on top... lie yuen offering hug.. me n cute cheng yee

today i saw back our old sticker photosl... all the friends forever.. friendship chops...
reminds me how close we were.
maybe we can still be.

luckily i shaved or zzen will pengsan


why write i still of you and only of you
that you and our love are our argument
and knowst that hurt u'll be only when you read

why learn did i not after many times the shadow piles on the building bricks
that bricks of love tempers into pressure and thus wrinkles
and knowst life is but beautiful n beautiful it seems you made it to be

why love this much for you when all i paints seems only be hate for you
that May pass and August comes still the birds could not sing how much i love you
and knowst even i could not place tempo and forte on my love for thee

why hope i still of love when love is but a word
that maybe even mother and papa and you are less than a word-love
and knowst that you are life and life is heavier than love

why break i wont the glass when its trembling with prints and steps
that all will all but praise me for the sun i rise and set for them
and knowst that only the eclipse know of my rain and clouds.

why give your roads to me when we have to ride on knives after i bend the directions
that blind a fool like you gave me the knives when you are in esctasy
and knowst i will use them because i like to stab

so look! knowst me knowst i will not sever the roots trying to make the bees leave
because roots suffer bees don't
we cry words don't.



what happens when i tries to install mao mao and fat fat and diao diao into my high school friend's vocabulary............

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
fat fat..
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
wat y doing
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
fat fat

.... says:
.... says:
so it's that time of the month again eh?
.... says:
for u to come and compress my self esteem to a complete zero

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
wat time fei fei..
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
but but
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
but .. fat fat..........

.... says:
.... says:
yes prick prick

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
but but... i dun have prick... fat fat
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
u got prick.. diao diao

.... says:
u're think like one

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
diao diao... dun so fat ma

.... says:
.... says:
.... says:
chi sin gah!
.... says:
u too stress until sot jor ah?

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
dun angry mah.. diao diao
.... says:
pet pet

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
(pet pet?????) dun so fat har..

.... says:
pet pet la!
.... says:
is the diapers brand

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
bou bou.......
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
bou bou hou
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
stupid advert

.... says:
.... says:
u must be really bored

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
i entertaining u u must thank me fei fei

.... says:

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
but fat fat u not sincere
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:

.... says:
i damn sincere lor

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
tiuuuuuuuunnnnngggggg BBOOMMM
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
cHIkaaa baaaBOOOMM
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
mocha FAT
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
FAT FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DUN IGNORE ME U FAT!!!!!!

.... says:
.... says:
how may i help u stickgirl

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
but but u r the one with the batang
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
i dun have
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
u fat
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
fat fat fat fat

.... says:
.... says:
*hits head to wall*

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
*slaps fei fei's piku

.... says:
.... says:
chi sin
.... says:
u're not haze
.... says:
who the fark are u?

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
then who m i!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.... says:
go and hack ppl's msn account

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:

.... says:
u go moral or not?
.... says:
.... says:
where's ur conscience?
.... says:
.... says:
let dog eat edi ah?
.... says:
.... says:

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
ha chiu
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
khc khc khc khc koe hock chuan koe hock chuan kfc kfc kfc koe fried chuan koe fried chuan

.... says:
.... says:
.... says:

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
jesus fat fat

.... says:
tell me
.... says:
what happen?

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:

.... says:
.... says:
go sleep
.... says:
i'm sure u needed that

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:

.... says:
.... says:

•·.·´¯`·.·• haze •·.·´¯`·.·• says:
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA okokokokla.. i stop it bye bye


mmu turned me into a monsta

I dreamed I had an interview with God
"So you would like to interview me?" God asked me.
"If you have the time" I said
God smiled : "My time is eternity".

"What questions do you have in mind for me?"

"What surprises you most about mankind?" I asked.

And God replied:

That you get bored of being children, are in such a rush to grow up,
and then long to be children again.

That you lose your health to make money and then
lose your money to restore your health.

That by thinking anxiously about the future or worrying about the past,
you forget that you live in the present moment, and therefore you live
neither for the present nor the future.

That you live as if you will never die, and you die as if you had never lived.

Then God's loving hands took mine and we were silent for while and then I asked...

"As a parent, what are some of life's lessons you want your children to learn?"

And God smiled and said:

Learn that you cannot make anyone love you, but,
you can always love yourself.

Learn that what is most valuable is not what you have in your life,
but who you have in your life.

Learn that it is not good to compare yourselves to others. Each and every one of you is unique and beautiful and has something to offer this planet. Cherish who you are! You were meant to Shine your own Light!
Don't let others determine how bright you will be!

Learn that it only takes a few seconds to open profound wounds in persons we love, and that it takes many years to heal them.

Learn to forgive by practicing forgiveness.

Learn that there are persons that love you dearly,
but simply do not know how to express or show their feelings.

Learn that money can buy everything but happiness and that a rich person is not the one who has the most, but is one who needs the least..

Learn that two people can look at the same thing and see it totally different.

Learn that a true friend is someone who knows everything about you,
and loves you anyway.

And so I realized that God would always Love me and that there wasn't really any need for goodbyes because God is Everywhere. All we need to do to find him, is open our hearts and listen.

With that, I thanked God for blessing me with the opportunity to live, to love and the freedom to create my own life on such an abundant planet.

"I'll be speaking with you again real soon.", I said.

And God replied:

Anytime, Anywhere,
24 hours - I'm always here!


to whom it may concern

i learnt that crying n facing pain alone is not pathetic..n lots of people do it too. n i respect those who did it.
why cant u. without making any fuss.

i learnt that asking for things that are not offered are pathetic. it just means u r desperate n dependant.
maybe u should stop asking.

i learnt that friends are those who forget certain things bout u.. n remember certain things bout u.. n put no act in front of u. n they are always easy going.
cant u forget n stop acting.

i learnt that blaming everyone including urself doesnt solve the problem. laying out the problems n then finding solutions is the right way.
face them like a bull.

i learnt that everyday i m angry at others.. but in fact i could have stop that by speaking up n telling them that what they are doing is spoiling my day.
but telling them will spoil theirs. theirs important. mine not?

i learnt not to purposely sneeze n shiver in cold.. or scratch n complain in heat.. just to hope someone will do something bout it. i will just walk to a better place to take care of myself.
no one will care bout u.. until u start caring bout urself.

i learnt not to be hurt when people look down on me.. cuz i know i m unworthy n so are they.
in return i will not look down on them.. try not to make them feel unworthy.
so stop treating everything as if its a competition.

i learnt that my life story isnt the main storyline of the movie. n i m not the star. but without me.. nothing is complete. n to some people.. i m the star.
be grateful to ur parents n siblings.

i learnt that each time u compromise with my whims n fancies, i love u more n more.. n i know that no matter how mature u are.. u can still be more mature..
pls realize that alot of people out there are always compromising with ur whims n fancies too.

i learnt that in my whole life, everything i hate hate hate .. i will have to face them once or twice.. or thru out my whole life. when i have faced them, i know i m proud of myself for growing up.
pls grow up. u r not a kid anymore.

i learnt that when lecturers make time to make ur life miserable, i should be grateful that they at least hate me. there are people whom they do not even know their name. or existance. n they should be the one pitied.
acknowledge people around u.

i learnt that adults screw up more than children do is because they do not get slapped around by parents when they do something wrong anymore. i wished i can be slapped out of my mistakes. n sometimes i wish i can slap u out of urs. teach u wats right n wats wrong.
n for once go to sleep punished, knowing that i wont repeat the mistake anymore n i m cleansed.
i learnt that by accepting u for who u r..i'll spend less time getting angry with u n scolding u.. n making my own life miserable... i'll learn that i'll be happy if i let myself be.
accept others for who they are.. u'll spend more time laughing sincerely.

i learnt thati was taught that after a days life... i should forget all anger i have before i sleep..n wake up anew.. with a smile to the first person u see.
forget n forgive..

i learnt that when u hate something n u still do it.. u have to let the person know u hate doing it.. but u r still gonna do it for that person... the person will understand its a sacrifice n will do the same to u.
everything works 2 ways.

i learnt all these when i m 19..

bro : no
dad: shut up



shudup ar?



sis bro n cousin at the table. 3 kids. n then a vcd seller came n promoted his porn videos. nude n fucking in front of them.
kena scolded by me.
dai sei.
dad shocked.


finally got time to post all these up... damn maya.
look at those fishes..

i went snorkelling!!!

damn clear ya.

sunset in tioman..

omg la

wat to do with her. chuck her in.

maokozi also follow me go tioman

crabs we caught in tioman.

family of monkeys

bro just woke up. emo

family. with maokozi


fat fat

my brother looks like a fish

constipated fall.

end of post..

maya renderings...

house of stairs n nonsense

fantasy themepark.





my site

yeh right.

mama mama mao

i lurve rendering in maya.
oh i havent finished.. itchified.. wanna render.. still need to model props. trees n such. n texturing.
heres before. without lights n render settings

heres after lightings, fg, gi n mr


why my boyfriend is the greatest

1. if he hates u.. he likes u.. if he dun hate u... he dun give a damn bout u
2. he is fluent in all languages
3. he is getting smarter. FINALLY
4. he makes decisions for him, us n me as if its the most natural thing in the world.
5. but yet he let me have n do what i want.
6. he is vv good at reverse psychology
7. is even better at acting
8. best at pretending to be sad, crying, pain, happy, proud.
9. he knows what i m doing even when he is 500 miles away
10.he is like the wind. unpredictable n cold at times. wild n breezy in other times
11. he is fat.


this good
ok. let me blog again without so much angst cuz i m not angry actually.

n let me get this straight.

i m not the best. i m this good. i m haze. ok.
this good.
i cannot see things the way professionals do. nor can i see things the way others do. too.
i also critisize the way i do. not like professionals. or not like those who dont dare to speak up.
same goes when i do work. i cannot be professional like the real pros is. but neither can i pretend to screw up my work just so my standard are like those around me. i cant. i m this good. i will do my work this good.
now u can think watever u want to think of me. of cos u can, what m i, god? even god don't mess with free will. u can call me anything. proud. overego. over emo. know it all. lansi. lanlek.
yes i know i keep quiet most of the times.. almost suddenly always. thats cuz when things happen.
when suddenly a lecturer choose to stand just behind u n say.. itu aku pun boleh buat, ah dapatlah duit senang je. during art market. he chose me to say that too behind my back when other products he also can buat. he also can dapat duit. n u know their standards. he chose me. wat. m i supposed to think that hes jealous. no i dont.
ya i know he did it cuz he hates me. n only me. n cuz of my stuck up attitude.
i know they got feelings but do i talk like that directly 5 inches behind them? man.

but just remember this.
i got feelings too. haha!!! SURPRISE of the century. yes i got feelings too. i feel hurt too. just keep watever u think in that head of yours n i'll be fine.

n just in case people do think that this good means god damn motherfucking good. no. i m not gdmf-ing good.
secrets. people only love them when the bearer is someone famous. maybe u dun give a fuck. but my secrets.

i cannot draw according to guides. all my guides turn up too big too wrong.
i like to march detail to detail. eye to eye to nose to mouth. screw the guides.

i cannot draw anything. n i do mean anything out of imagination.
i cannot visualize lighting.
most of the time i compose using photos n puttin them together. so there. i m a photostat machine. put in 10 cents come out copy.
yes i draw out of porportions.. only when the pen nib is like 0.5, and the eyes i m going to draw is 0.2 thick. how u want me control i ask u.

n believe me. i teach. i do. but when halfway thru u disagree with me n do something else i give up. n then u'll blame me for screwing up ur work. n inside my hard egg head. i know damn well u screwed up cuz u din listen. cuz u think ur mouth ought to be smaller, ur eyes bigger. ur nose further. the shade lighter darker. the color diff. u listen to me.. well. maybe then u'll learn.

well hell i dun really blame u for not listening.. hmm. cuz i m the same age as u, i m as screwed up as u maybe, i m human like u... of cos u have all the right to challenge my thinking.
but ever wonder u swallow everything lecturers say??they r human like us. what makes u think they are not as screwed up as us. challenge them fuck it. thats y i talk like i do when it comes to them. but of cos.. u do not challenge them when ur skill is like 2 balls compared to their 450 magnum.

i m not telling to be like a baby.. waiting for my thumb. yeh hell u can argue with me... i'll prefer that baby.

now do u feel me ma peepz.

u go to the saloon. ur hair comes out wrong. u blame the saloon. u know whats wrong? its u. u were in there for 2 hours. shampoo. wash. cut. in the 2 hours u did not speak up.
thats it. u did not speak up. n u watch.. minute by minute how it goes wrong to worse. to worst to disastrous.
or u let ur parents decide ur life. u blame them. u know what. a life is a long road man. enough time for u to raise ur hand. say STOP. i do not want to go ur way.
speak up damn it.
how many times u shut up watching things go worse n worse n worse from every slow sec to the next? just say stop n speak up ur mind.
or u feel ur anger boiling n boiling inside u .. but u do not let it explode in front of those jerks who messed with u... but u let it explode when u r alone after that, when u r with ur loved ones.. man. how long they messed with u ?? 15 minutes?? thats 900 secs for u.. just stop them n speak up.

speak up people. n dun blame others who speak up.