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there are times when a girl has to say whats on her mind
even thought she knows how much its gonna hurt
before i say another word let me tell you i love you
let me hold you close and say these words as gently as i can

you musnt think u have failed me... u were the first real love i ever had..
and all the things i ever said i swear they still are true
for no one else can have the part of me i gave to you

i couldnt really blame you if you turned and walked away
but with everything i feel inside i m asking you to stay


can't take my eyes of u

you are too good to be true
cant take my eyes of u
you be like heaven to touch
oh i wanna hold you so much
at long last love has arrive
and i thank god i m alive

you are too good to be true
cant take my eyes of u

pardon the way that i stare
theres nothing else to compare
the sight of you makes me weak
theres no words left to speak
but if u feel like i feel
please let me know that its real

you are too good to be true
cant take my eyes of u

i need you baby... n if its quite all right
i need you baby .. to warm a lonely night
i love u baby.. trust in me when i say

oh pretty baby dun let me down i pray
oh pretty baby now that i found u ..stay
and let me love you baby let me love you


dear you

dear you,

i m sorry, you are the closest to me, one i see everyday..
you have many who are close to you, i do not know where i stand in your heart.
its unfortunate that every week you are the first one i see,

every week, i see everything falling apart, no deadlines are met.
i know for sure the deadline cannot be met. n its unfortunate for u to read it in my face and my emotions what i feel for the whole team, you think that its all bad cuz of you but it isn't.

regardless of what my face says, i did not mean to hurt you. especially you. n in my heart, i do not think badly of you at all.

i cannot help you when i m hanging by a thread myself, i cannot be the only one who has solutions. i have snapped. i do not have the experience to be patient and still keep my head on when everything is in chaos.

i did not start this team to lead, but to make all of you into leaders. we did fine in the production. the lack of time made us snap, made me snapped. it is a shame that all my pain is felt by you too, you who are so optimistic and energetic.

i am sorry.


i may not have a dream house with big lcd screen for a tv
i may not have a mom that can cook well or a perfect family
i may not have worked in the most illustrious company
i may not be considered kind and angelic
nor was i acknowledged being the smartest ass on earth
i may not have been to all the 7 wonders or to paris or france.
i may be content and raving about the little little things that i have, things that meant alot to me n little to you who have seen so many.
i may not be any superstar with huge visions.
i may not have been brought up by the greatest mom n dad.
i may not have a garden party for any of my birthdays.
i may not have an expensive and imported pet.
i may not have breakfast or luxurious meals waiting for me everytime i come home.

perhaps u think i m going to start the next sentence with a 'but i have xxx or yyy'
but thats not going to happen. theres not going to be a but cuz i do not really have anything to shout about.

that does not mean i m inferior to you who only care about who u have seen and where you have been and what you have.
i like my small tv at home, my old bed from 12 years ago, my collection of books that u may deem childish and my old car.
i m happy about the things i have, but i do not make others feel bad about the stuff they don't have.
at least i m real and you are not.



first of all...lets kick start with momo!!!!

and some emo photos when i was on my way to awana puri

a view from my office... everyone that day was glued to the glass pane.. looking out for the parachuters that jump off kl towers.. supposed to be some rehearsal for merdeka.. cant u see it?? that 2 pixels there... lol
and some photos from klang.....

our director (pronounced duh-rect-tuh, not die-rect-tor) Ivan Leong

the 2 mamaos... vinn and haze

and muah

wth is calvin.. oh he was doing his gay thingie... censored off di.. but when i get his pic i will put it here... else he will give me his du lan look.. which is exactly right on his face right now as he is reading this...

looks like flower ya... buts it actually fireworks!

and finally PICC night on merdeka's countdown.. we brought a tripod.. the whole place is swimming with SLRS and tripods.. man.... i feel so inferior.. everyone else has at least a exposure meter.

here are some choice shots of that night.. i have like 200 ++ photos.. perhaps i should stock them :p
dunno why the tripod senget

still senget .. its putrajaya's bridge thats lighted up so nicely here

about to have dinner...

models during the night.. from cupid jewels

she posing for me wei...

testing shutter speed.. sky or cityscape... can't decide

my very very bad first attempt at fireworks.. exposed for too long, too big.. i think this was shutter speed 8" and aperture F11

subsequent shots, shutter 3" at F25

the whole city lighted up by japan's fireworks

the crowd actually went "ooohhh.."

another set of fireworks.


yet another set of fireworks

i think their theme is flowers

there was actually a solar system fireworks ... i have to dig again in my cf card

reminds me of palm trees

last one for now :D


britney spears comeback leak!!!

gimme more

cold as fire

the two links are leaked singles from britney's comeback album

they actually sound good.. especially the 2nd one.. i m surprised.. but then again.. she IS a singer.. regardless of the .. junk. that she is right now. :D


its not just me

tell me you have had trouble sleeping..that you toss and turn from side to side
that its my face you have been seeing in your dreams at night

tell me that you wake up crying and you are not sure exactly why
tell me that something is missing in your life

tell me that you live for love.. that forever is never enough
that you have waited all your life to see that you want so badly to believe

tell me that its not just me..

i could have sworn I saw you smile at me.. standing in the pouring rain at a loss of words and running out of time
i said this crazy thing, i said.
"tell me that you live for love.. that forever is never enough
that you have waited all your life to see that you want so badly to believe

tell me that its not just me.."

hold me now and tell me that you do believe in a soul mate..

tell me that its not just me..

things i wanna do things i wanna say

i have been very busy for the last few days... with little time to eat of sleep.. hmm.. haha
anyways i m sick right now..

i m slaving off for a production that I m involved with atm... together with ma mates

heres a quickie update... audition looking for the actress...


those days were gone..
when songs struck a different chord in my heart..
i did not take the path that was laid before me then.. i have lost my chance.
now i m hurting.. after so many years.
it just came back so suddenly, flooded me with memories that could have been. could still have become.
i just need one chance.



i m looking for a female hip hop dancer to star in a music video. she will be the lead actress as well.

she needs to be able to dance, act and mime singing at the same time.
long hair is a plus.
chinese only.

call 0162150835, haze for more details.
or come to the eximius school of performing arts section 13/4 pj this friday for an audition. 8 - 10 pm

applicable to malaysians only.


I've been TaGgED!


Name : Haze the sexy Long

Birth Date : changes every day.. right now ... year 88 pls.

Current Status : online

Eye Colour : Brown with like black lines with like contacts

Hair Colour : today its pink


My Heritage : Malaysian Chinese but I look like Maggie Q wtf

My Fears : being too successful... *roll eyes irritatingly*

My weaknesses : being like too humble you know.. i m just so innocent and intelligent yet smart at the same time wtf

My Perfect Pizza : bokeh + diamonds + money all stuffed inside


My thoughts first waking up : shit i have to air the bed again

My bedtime : your bed or my bed?

My most missed memory: every single one of them.. my memory's so bad i miss them all .. cant remember a thing.. where was i?


Pepsi or coke : lime juice

Single or group dates : call me for an appointment!

Adidas or Nike : adidas

Tea or Nestea : recent lurve.. : kenji's coffee!!!

Chocolate or Vanilla: neither.. sushi pls?

Cappuccino or Coffee : Latte la moi


Smoke : wanted to. waiting for the right disaster to come along. (come soon pls)

Curse : um. fucky fucky seconds of my life?

Take a shower : yea but not to bathe.. *winks

Have a crush : i don't crush people sorry

Think you’ve been in love : think only izzit... plenty of times la

Go to school : forever pls... thanks waiter.

Want to get married : tomorrow la tomorrow la

Believe in yourself : where the hell do you think high priestess of maoism comes from?

Think you’re a health freak : i dun think bout such... disgusting ideas


Drank alcohol : duh.. what m i? 12?

Gone to the mall : erm. no. i just like. live there . for like. always?

Been on stage : you mean when i kiss jay chou or when he kiss me???

Eaten sushi : well. i m like. on earth. and you are asking this. cuz you are on. wat? pluto?

Dyed your hair: you mean up there or down there? or in between???


Played a stripping game : strip carrots meh..

Changed who you were to fit in : hello?? people change to fit in with me ok??? like wtf


To be married : 18 , 24, 32 , 45 , 67


Best eye colour : never look there before

Best hair colour : you got hair then only you ask me la

Short hair or long hair : i just want a man la ok.. you want hair why you ask me??


A minute ago : re answering all ur eff-ing questions

Hour ago : convincing someone to sit in my kancil unsuccessfully

1 day ago : trying to be reasonable with unreasonable reasons

1 month ago : why do you think we have blogs??

Year ago : cuz we dun remember unreasonable things such as this!


I love : working at ______________ ( finish my sentence)

I feel : procrastinated

I hate : being unprepared

I hide :* alt- tab all questionable sites* ha?? hide what? dun have ark

I miss : being young

I need : Stephanie Meyer's 3rd book.. out in august 31st!!


1. Mao mao B

2. Mao mao Vinn

3. Mao mao Calvin

4. Mao mao Dennis

5. anyone who's name is made out of alphabets



The touch of a butterfly

Dreams of your touch

somehow when i first start everything looks great.. towards the end i just wanna finish it so bad i dont care whether i screw it up or not. oh well. eff it


playful jake gyllenhaal

another work done...

for a full gallery view u know u can always visit them at hazelong.deviantart.com
n soon.. at hazelong.com.. but that would take a while...



in case yall din know i have gotten myself a new handphone..
a glam black and gold sony walkman phone.. because it is so new i m having a hard time downloading apps and buy accessories for it
cool ya..
i m so happy right now

here are some photos for your enjoyment..

last weekend i painted some sculptures for ah b's mom in her garden... so happy.. its been so long since i have exerted my artistic skills...

click to enlarge

and of cos.. no blog will be complete without camwhore photos ya?
my work environment and the fantastic klcc view .. and of cos mimimomo....

click to enlarge

peace out



hahahah my blog has become a movie blog..

i noticed another movie recently.
it has got amazing cast!!

claire danes robert deniro Michelle Pfeiffer Ian Mckellen Peter O toole Sienna Miller Ricky Gervais
Rupert Everett
henry cavill

man.. seems like the whole hollywood is packed in this show and the vfx looks promising!

you can view the full trailer here

its called Stardust


the next lord of the rings : the golden compass

pictures and trailers for you to enjoy...

starring nicole kidman, dennis craig and eva green rfom casino royale and dakota blue..

nicole kidman

i hope the vfx is in the pre-vis stage..

the compass

eva green is flying??



jan lam hoi fung


late update

collection 1 : Scent

harry potter 7, transformers, god of war

news for news sake

transformers is a big hit, like the best action movie ever. which calls up for the making of transformers 2 in 2009
followed by Prince of Persia : Sands of Times
both will be directed by the same director Michael Bay.
Pop will most likely be produced by Jerry Bruckheimer and is hoped to be the continuation of the legendary Pirates of the Carribean.

Meanwhile Peter Jackson was rumored to be directing God of War soon.

and the big news come.
as you all know Harry Potter 7 is coming out this July 21st and already spoilers are leaking out EVERYWHERE.

here is the following.
Highlight if u wanna be spoilt

Ron and Hermione die at different times in the book, but both of them are dead by the end
The main plot of the book focuses on Harry as he tries to find the Horcruxes
Snape is forced to kill Dumbledore
Harry kills himself in order to kill Voldemort
In the end of the book Harry is reunited in the Deathly Hallows (Ghost World) with his parents, Ron, Hermione, Sirius and Dumbledore

and more can be seen here


basecamp vfx

after a week of working at basecamp, i have finally embarked on my houdini journey.
after days of rotoscoping dancing chicks with flying hair and fur jackets and hoop earrings, and 11 textures of realistic building i finally upgraded to houdini work.

thank god

but then again, its texturing.. trying to get used to the houdini interface but the renders in Mantra are really awesome.. i have yet to tweak the specular map though
the render above is just a basic render..no gi no nothing..
i m in awe of the people's work there.. i m like so far behind. really takes some getting use to.....

2 more balls to go.. and an animation of a bike to clean up..
they use alot of camera projection.. lol..

til next time..

oh i'll post a screen shot of a roto node view in Shake tomorrow.. hahahaha... its really really heavy


a little girl's thoughts

i'll never know why love is amplified by distance and fear
the saturated colours of union can fade to blur tones
the thirst quenched, back to facing walls
theres no one around, but the enveloping crowd of self indulgence
thats when my thoughts turn to you.

i am curling and hiding in my blanket, seeking the warmth thats no longer there.
i am thinking and fretting, pulling back the threads of time that we flowed thru without a thought..
i am wishing and hoping, that i am facing the walls together with you swimming thru the waves of time together in the same space..

why i can't explain why the same space felt bigger right now
the sad words of a love song realized its meaning in my heart
i might have drowned in sorrow least for the memories of us that still cling on to my consciousness



work at basecamp is nice..soothing and comfortable.
yet challenging

anywayz... another new work.

click to enlarge...
a quickie in photoshop


A holiday post

here are some uber-realistic rendering of my assignment..

3d render

original photo

3d render

original photo

3d render

original photo

here is the compositing short.. showing how i composite each pass

n here as promised the video of another visual effects short
animation - david n vinn
character modelling n animation - fazlin
sound - kazer n david
modelling n texturing- vinn
uv - kazer
texturing, lighting, rendering, compositing, effects - haze


i dug out my old videos.. lol.. heres my mint mg i did for 1st trimester..