Excessiveness of Something

Coffee. Smokes. Books.
one is alright. 2 or 3 is fine.
10 is excessive.

patience. love. compromise.
doing it 24/7 for 1 year is alright.. 2 or 3 years is fine.
one whole freaking life is excessive

doting. spending time. bedding.
5 days per week 2 years is alright.. 3 years is fine.
one whole freaking life is tiring.

protected.
am I a child?

controlled.
am I your property?

sandbagged.
the sands are running out.. I am empty. too many holes. the punches will hurt more now than ever.

I stretched. lied. was suffocated.
just to prolong the pain from hitting you. each time I made you happy, I killed a little bit of myself.

I am fucking scared. attached too many limbs to my body.. if only I have torn the rest out before attaching another, I wouldn't be such a coward now. of being original. default.

watever fuck u call that shit.