haze

DEATH n LOVE


there are lumps on both of my hands for 3 days already.. n i haven't tell my dad bout it.

maybe i should just go check ..


death is closing in on me.. days seemed grayer.. nothing seems to matter.


suddenly those food i hate..the smell of pollution.. the construction noise.. n the arguments..doesn't seemed to matter anymore.. doesn't seemed to hate them as much as i do..
they are all signs of life. n thinking that they'll be leaving..

..

watever.


even in the direst state...live struggles to renew itself..love continue to blossom.. bringing new souls to the world..

yea...

yesterday.. 3 diff people who actually is the same one person talker to me... confusing?


i did soomething wrong again...............out of the blue i started cging a scene which actually did happen... but i mis sketched something... both are supposed to be fully clothed... but i forgotten... shoot.


should i change or leave it.. i kinda like the body though.. but can't compare to the real one..wakkaka. real one more.. '....'

but anyway.. i think i need a rest..

i m tired.. i do not wanna go on playing this game of spiting him..doing all this is just a form of showing how much he means to me.. dun wanna waste my time.. guess i delete all the contacts again. not like i really did talk to them or anything...


i'll just go on with my life..which is going to be a short one...

wat irony.