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HECK. I M BACK

i m back. bitch n honest n brutal n all. woo hoo!.. though a solitude.


ok.. mmu registration is this sunday.. n my dad have not even phone his friend regarding the facilities problem...............................the last thing i want is to end up in singapore polytechnic ..

updates.. these few days just being a pig snoring n searching for the sleeping god in my dreams..


people can be so shallow..................... ok. i know that there are bitches n sluts n bastards n jerks n geeks n nerds in this world, but other sane people doesn't have to go around talking bout them, publicising them negatively all the time. they are just different. we are all different.

n wats the whole issue bout looks? looks changes. personality changes. watever changes. so how can we look at someone n decide they are right for us when all we get is the bubbling unstable chemical reactions whenever we see someone handsome or pretty....?


i can't pretend that i m not shallow.. that i do not critisize those that are different... but some times my efforts seemed to be so lame cuz i was trying to fit in. all i wanna do i shut up n let the others talk without someone telling me i m sobbing up the atmosphere.


yea. i used to be talkative.. i still is.. only to a few people now. i used to be a joker. i rarely is now. i used to be vvv open with wat i think. i never is now.

now i m just like a limp half dead flower with curlin' petals. its funny how someone could change so much just in a short amount of time, for someone else.

yea, i thought that he was the one for me. man, i still think he is. but i can't see myself going on with him anymore. the pressure was on me all the time now. n i m taking punches from everybody else in my world n his world. punches that forces me to back away from him. to back away from love.

n now i myself is forcing myself to back away from him.


nothing. nothing will ever make me take him back. unless a huge miracle happens. n if that do, u can see snow falling outside a malaysian street. then u'll know i have taken him back.